i always feel that livin like me .. sux... darno.. mayb im those tat live out side da society...
i was quite a weaklin when i was in form1 to form 2 tat time.. i was lazy.. not productive ... n rotten away....i was those that dosent even want to care bout this society... until dec 2001, i 1st join drama camp.. at there on da 1st day of da camp.. i onli realize wut i hav become..i was so sad and da 5D4N was really difffucult for me.. as a guy who has leave da normal word for 2 years to rejoin it back...den at ther.. i meet a good teacher.. who start to giv me some advice... den.. it was ther that i start learning again..
in form 3 ,life was different again.. new people new faces.. i start getting along wif frens tat time.. 1st time of my life that i was reaching outward...outstrech to da world beyond i can see... alot of things happen that time ... i was finally able to discover myself.. i start to become proud..dec came... da camp came too.. i join again.. thinking tat i can be better than last time...on da 3rd nite i fail... i found out that i was too proud... i started to learn wut confucian teaching... den it was end of my f3 life.. i was ther.. thinkin again n again.. about my fall in da camp...
form4 .. i grew alot... i am wiser then i was in f3...able to make wise dession... i start to have vison.. n my ego grew.. as i was on my way to da top in da scl...i start to mix around.. n figuring human behavior... as da onli word that i could figure..it was in da whole year... i start reading confucian books n teori..i begin to understand human more.. n able to know .. what is right n wrong.. n true n false..i started to join more parties n become alot more.. wild n cunning....after all the thing that i had learn.. i start to undermine ppl... i feel that every1 has their weakness..and therfore.. to make my self...to have a strong place in my circle... i start to fix my weakness...n becomin stronger...dun n den.. da camp again.. after wut i had learn... tis time tis camp for me is different.. i was in da camp.. always a secured place.. but i start to out strect myself... being "over"... n i feel that i still hav alot more abilty....da camp for me is short...as i started to becomin a cold blodded person.. i start to loose feelings...i feel that if a person can stand alone.. den why do we need frens... f4 ends in a quite nite...
form 5...so called my last year in secondary scl....
my year in f4..
i hav been scold quite sometimes by those much experince ppl... most of them say that i noe alot.. but actually i oso duno what did i actually noe..so at that time ...i was so eager to learn bout what make a human thinks....i read books... but none of them help... so i start join parties...n people.. den by human experince... i learn.. from da diffucult way....i learn more than wat people at my age is leaning.. i feel happy...n glad.. i was at above of alot of people...but i aim high.. as alpha n omega...
